Monday, June 27, 2011

oh child

My niece Sammie I call "child." Since she was born to my best friend & "ate" when we were 16 (she was 17)....I feel like for a bit she was my child. Well, she did have to live between her grandma & me for almost 6 months while her parents saved $ for a house (in colorado the daycare was $$$). Anyhow, 17 yrs later, she's once again at my home vacationing. I don't know how people do it. How do you raise up a kid as best as possible & hope & pray she turns out ok? How do you not mess up the kid? Who's to say you have a bad seed or a bright star? Well, I do think she's a beautiful young lady with many bright stars ahead of her. She's an obedient & willing child. She's got hopes & dreams....big ones too! I admire that about her. Taking her around to Pepperdine, USC & UCLA have been eye-opening for me as a former college student & as her aunty. Where has the time gone? And why didn't I strive to be in these colleges? Anyhow, I wish her the best. I pray God puts footprints in her heart & delivers her from any harm & danger that may cross her path.

I grew up with a "younger sister (actually cuzin)" who whined constantly. She's an adult now, but she can still whine. I guess growing up with it, I got use to it & just tuned it out. But it's very distinct. Sammie whines too. eek! I actually got annoyed. Whining/complaining about allergies, weather, sleep, my schedule.....ayah. Gimme a break child....I can't fix your allergies, but meds can (the fact they don't work, maybe they aren't allergies?).....I can't change the weather......sleep is overrated.....my schedule? I'm sorry it's not convenient since I'm a noc shift person. What can I say, she's been good....dealing with the mess in the house, the heat of the sun in our home, the doggie hair, the ants.....but do we have to complain over & over? I get it! But I can't change it & complaining/whining more about it does nothing. Oh....and the moaning & groaning she does when she awakes or has to wake up.....she better grow out of that quick before college. You'll miss sleep....what? Sleep? Oh sleep. Good luck. Besides, only little kids do that.....moan & groan when woken from sleep. Oh the joys of being the recipient of whining. No good hahaha!

The child is a special blessing tho. A gift from God. In the picture, God has a purpose for this girl. God gave Mel & Tony a child....one child....but a child nonetheless. And a wonderful brilliant child. We are all very thankful for her. We are all very blessed because of her. At the turn of the century, I remember telling one of my cousins that if I were to die today, I'd die happy and fulfilled. I know what it's like to be a daughter & loved. A sister & loved. A niece, cousin, granddaughter, aunty....and loved. I know what it's like to be loved. I know what it's like to have a child that you are like mommy to. Because of Sammie I can say that last part. In a sense, you can say she completes me. Obviously I didn't die the next day, so God's not done with me yet....more blessings to come. After 17 yrs, I'm still blessed by Sammie.